Sometimes Good News Comes Cloaked in Bitterness

Hello everyone. Readers. Friends. Family. As previously stated and promised, I have some very good news to share with you. It’s funny. I have thought a long while now about how I should phrase everything that I want to say to you…how I should articulate and truly convey my genuine feelings. The truth of the matter is that I have waited over two years to say it, and sometimes the simplest way is the best. I am moving to New Zealand.

The soft move is set for December 31st, but the date may change based on availability in flights. “Soft move?” Yeah. Let me explain. I will be leaving the country from the 31st of December until some time later, probably late February. “So why are you going for 2 months and then coming back?” I am staying in NZ for two months to lock down a job and talk to my contacts down there. John Elliott, Corbin’s dad, [corbin is my friend who lives in NZ], has been the key that started unlocking many doors. I have some serious favors owed to him. The contacts and resources are to help me obtain a job and thus fast track my visa into approval. I am very optimistic about getting a job and locking everything down. I will fly back to the U.S. to collect more things. Early March, or some time around then, will be the hard move, or, the “actual” move. That’s me…moving to NZ…for 2-5 years. [breathe]

This is the hard part…

It is impossible to do everything that I want to do before I leave. It’s impossible to say good-bye to everyone, or spend the “right” amount of hours with everyone that I will miss. Thus, this news, the news that I have been waiting to hear for the past 2 years, the news that ‘I am finally fulfilling my calling’…is cloaked in bitterness. It is STILL hard to swallow that I am leaving nearly everything I know behind me as I walk onto the airplane. Friends. Authentic, amazing people, who have been there for me through thick and thin. Family. Unconditionally incredible and loving people that I have been beyond blessed with. These things I hold tighter than any possession I own because they have been, and always will be priceless to me. Yes, technology allows me to keep up with you all and make it seem like I never left. A wonderful thing it is. Yet, I am a very personal person and love the face to face time I get to spend with people. I will miss it and I will miss you all so very much.

So that’s the bitterness.

The other part of me is so crazy beyond being able to express it excited! Point made. Honestly, if you saw my face, my expressions would convey so much better than this text, and yet, I think you get it, haha. There is jumping being had, and daydreaming about mountains…..MOUNTAINS GALDALF!! A dream. A dream 3 years in the making. A dream that started as a thought, confirmed in the fire of testimony, carrying out what needed to…until the day that I would fulfill it. That day has come and WILL come to pass. On a unrelated note, I have to admit, I’m not a fan of summer. And so to be moving into a country currently in their summer…it’s not a ginger’s paradise I’ll tell you that much. Two summers in one year? ugghhhh….

In all seriousness, I had to tell you all because I know that you and you and YOU are invested in me somehow. If you are reading this, you care about what I have to say for some reason, ha. Awesome! Also, if I’ve shared my story with you or told you about NZ (which I do with just about everyone, ha) then, you might be wondering when I’m headed off, especially since the answer to that question has been, “When my stuff all gets done.” As if I couldn’t have picked a more ambiguos way to tell people.

So that’s it! That’s all I have to say. Thank you for sticking with me through this. You are truly awesome. Thank you if you have been or have prayed for me or my situation. I have you to thank for my success. Thank You. I will keep updating you all on things, but as for my adventure…it is only a matter of time now. A very wise half-man once said, “You step onto the road, and if you don’t keep your feetthere’s no telling where you might be swept off to…” and I hope that’s the case.


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