Juggling Apathy

Hey everyone. Well, I’m back from my trip and the weather is looking fine. In fact, its about to get warmer! However, my happiness of the weather is over-casted by a mood that I have been in for the past day. I don’t know why, but I am in an un-emotional funk that I can’t shake. It could be me trying to adjust to life again after break, it could be some upsetting news I have been getting (I heard about this past Sunday), it could be that I don’t feel like I can juggle church and school anymore, it could be my battle with what I want and what God wants, and on and on.

Do you know the feeling of deciding to carry something only realizing that halfway into the journey you realize you should have taken less, but as you look around to pass off your load–you know its too late because everything is already accounted for and you just have to keep carrying what you have? I feel this way with some things in my life. If it is one thing I can give advice to you about, it’s this: Make sure God wants you to do something before you do it. Include Christ in the decisions that seem too hard to make, for he will guide your path. If I seem weird to you, or different it is because of this. God will bring me out, but until then, I need time to talk with Him and with others.

For those of you who fasted over the past week, I want to know how you are doing. I want to know what you want prayed over and most importantly, I want you to talk to me if there is anything that you need to talk about. I feel that we are a close knit group and if you need something we should provide for that need. If you need something off your chest, I believe you should have people to talk to. Keep your gossip, bring your honesty. There is too much hurt going on out there to keep inside. If not me, let someone wise into your life to lend an ear if not His word. We shouldn’t walk the earth alone, neither should we show up Monday nights expecting the world to change. Let’s LIVE life with each other. Lets “LIFE” today, tomorrow and the next day. May we not use distance as an excuse for the disconnect we may feel, but rather find the means to gain the friendship we desire. May we improve ourselves in Christ and leave the things of this world behind us. Can we take our faith seriously? Is it possible to forget why we are really here? I know that I need to surround myself with Sun-Sat Christians and people who are honestly genuine about their faith. I need people in my life who know when something shouldn’t be said or who will call me out with grace when I’m doing the saying, I need people in my life who take seriously their growth with the Most High, who are in this world–but not of this world. The Children of God. We are the children of….God.

Think this week, listen to Him and listen to the wind, the leaves, the water dripping, the sound of the still and think about this: The people who we surround ourselves with will not only change the way we listen to leaves or water, or change how we see a bird soar or a squirrel climb–but they will change how we live our faith and how we treat God.

Proverbs 11:14 Without good direction, people lose their way; the more wise counsel you follow, the better your chances.

Proverbs 13:20 Whoever walks with the wise becomes wise, but the companion of fools will suffer harm.